reminiscent

would you believe that i still
suffer
sometimes

and i don't just mean
when i'm out in town
and your friends give me
the cold shoulder


or when i'm dancing
to your music
at a party
and you won't even
glance up at me
and wink

i don't just mean
when i'm lonely
and remembering
how you were the only
boyfriend
who even knew
how to handle
my illness...

most days
i suffer
just a little bit
because
i never meant
that you should truly
leave my life

and because
it is still you
who i wish to
talk to, and
laugh with,
and sleep with

or even just to
share a smoke with
two friends

i've asked you before
and i'll ask again...
why can't we just
run away together
and take care
of each other

my love for you is pure
and true

i hope you are well...