Idle Laments

have you ever extended
a caring hand
only to have it swatted away?
have you ever stood
arms open beneath a window
only to watch her retreat
and dive out the other side?
have you ever withheld an apology
that you've already offered
ten thousand times?
have you ever tried to save a life
only to discover
that your help is not wanted?
have you ever tried to rationalize
with someone whose sanity
teeters?
have you ever been a trusted friend
to someone who hates the world?
have you ever adored her young daughter?
did you ever perceive the danger?

she asked me for help
so many times
and i tried to find her definition...

i was always wrong...

in the end, she who turned away
from me, disbelieving in the Truth
of my friendship and point of view...

she can't stand the thought of me
while stupidly
i still sit here,
caring in silence